The Impossbile Love

We have all experienced Love at some level , love to a person,love to an ideal , love to material things ... the commonality between different kinds of love is the fact that we covet the object of our desires when we are in love with them. Probably this is the reason why all such different desires are called Love ,

I have heard a lot of people say that being in love is the purest form of selflessness , and there in lies the contradiction - how can the idea of coveting something be a form of selflessness ? The motive behind coveting something is possession. Which is also the theme for being selfish ,

So is Love really about selflessness or is it about being selfish. For the longest time i have believed that being in Love with some[thing/one] is one of the most selfish acts one human is capable of. After all coveting another human being for your own desires cannot be defined as selflessness. I was convinced that i was right until i had a chance to encounter something called the Impossible Love. (In person and in others).

Love to a person/object which you can never covet or attain is the Impossible Love , it goes against all the things that we have been taught in our life. Yet when we have our encounter with the impossible love it humbles us. We are willing to fall to any level , go against the very nature of our selves to obtain the Impossible Love , we do so with the full knowledge that we cannot hope to achieve it. But we try nonetheless and at times destroy ourselves doing so.

The Impossible Love in a lot of ways is in contradiction to the so called traditional love. Traditional Love has to be shared, it grows when it is mutual , but the impossible love is all yours to keep you can't share it with the object of your desire and you can't hope of anyone else understanding how you feel about him/her. In some ways it is divine , for it is the devotion to that person which keeps you loving her even though you know that there is no chance in hell for reciprocation.

When they say faith moves mountains they are referring to the impossible love. Traditional Love is mortal , it dies when you fall out of love with someone or when you die , but the impossible love is immortal , the theme of Traditional love is exaltation but the theme of Impossible Love is suffering.

In the past impossible love has been associated with Divinity and Gods for example in Hindu Mythology we have Meera - who in her love to Krishna destroyed herself , went against her very nature and surrendered her soul to him. As compared to Radha (Traditional Love) who married Krishna and had a fulfilling life, Radha surrendered her body to him. And it is Meera who is the saint and not Radha. It is Meera who was immortalized in comparision to Radha.

One should consider oneself lucky if they have encountered Traditional Love , for it proves that you are not alone and there is someone for you. one should consider themselves divine if they had a chance of experiencing the impossible love (for whatever reason - it could be a person , an ideal , even your dream job).

from time to time

There are times in my life when something so bizarre and strange happens to me that i feel powerless and defenseless in the circumstances. It feels like there 's some part of me ordering control but i cannot help just stand aside and watch as a mute spectator, watch the events and see how they unfold.
I am a curious person in general, curious about the dark aspects of the human nature. Things like greed,fear,violence intrigue me to no end. I get shitless scared by horror movies but that's my motivation for watching them, however now i wonder is there more to this than what i have told myself to interpret.... Do i at some level enjoy those emotions so much that i am drawn towards it as a death magnet.
Things and events like this teach you something new about yourself, something which you never knew about and though you weren't capable of. They make you believe less in yourself. They sort of take your mind apart, mix up the chunks and put it back together again, but only you know somehow things aren't what they used to be, sure nothing has changed around you... but its they way you interpreted things that's changed now.

Events like these always gives you signs, long before they reveal themselves its just that you aren't looking for them, and then when they actually manifest we tend to cry foul and say that is not that was. And then looking back in hindsight it feels like you always knew this was coming but its just that you didn't want to accept it.

Why is it that we are like this, in matters concerning our well being and sanity we turn a blind eye and think that we can always get away with it. When they say "God is in all of us" i some how interpret it as there's Devil also in all of us, i mean it makes sense this way and we can justify our actions.